i used to go drinking in bars
used to go cruising in parks
but nowadays i can sit home alone
and ‘cruise for love’ on a mobile phone
.
I used to watch men wanking in cottages
now i sit him home and watch them wanking online
i used to enjoy fucking bareback
with other positive brothers on meds
but now that everyone wants it raw
i’d rather use a condom instead
too many diseases are too widespread
.
i used to enjoy a chem sacrament
to deepen the sex-love-spirit connection
but for some reason now guys take drugs
that destroy all chance of them getting an erection
they take the drug then seek the sex
sitting home alone on their mobile phones….
but finding a lover then taking the trip…
is what really gets us in the zone.
.
London sometimes seems to be becoming
a city of hungry arses
of men chasing after something or nothing
of men taking without leaving deposits
Soft Cell sang it 1983…
“out in the city, out in the street
isn’t it pretty, isn’t it sweet
a man could get lost… a man could get lost’
.
the gay boys all rush to the city
the gay boys so easily get lost
i talk to guys who have done every sex act, every drug
been adored and explored
been raped and used, been desperate to be abused
but they’ve never wandered and met a man in the trees
they’ve never fucked just on beautiful weed
they’ve dived in the deep end
found excess, been high and of course depressed
and can’t see the way out of the viper’s nest
.
it used to be you had to work quite hard to be a slut
risk attack or arrest in parks and toilets
even the saunas got raided
sex is plentiful in the internet age
masc seeking masc is all the rage
the chains are breaking on the homosexual cage
but there’s more to discover about our sexuality
as we enter the Aquarian Age
.
these days we meet to play, we don’t mention love
but guys
what we really need is friends
the chance to make amends
and find some innocence again
.
there’s one way the sex scene is SOOOO much better today
we have safe, legal clubs where we can go to play
where men meet men for a pint and a cruise
wander through darkrooms, dance together, get naked
all this without the fear of the law
this is much much better than it was before.
Social sexual spaces can bond our brotherhood
Ecstatic behaviours save our souls……
if we let our play be divine
we bring our souls online
through love for each brother
we can liberate one another
.
sex can open the gates to heaven
the multi-dimensional Self
that’s what gay sex is actually for
in the grand scheme of creation
it’s what we were honoured for
in pagan Europe and around the world
it’s why the religions of the Father forbade our passion
and it’s why gay sex is now soooo much in fashion
for the old ways are rising again
the Aquarian light of liberation is going to shine through
some will fear annihilation
and some will see
there’s an acceleration of frequency
that is not just affecting the climate
the collective human soul is bursting to give birth
to light filled rainbow consciousness
where all are seen for their worth
and the magic ones return….
.
gays are gatekeepers, witches, shamans and fools
time to reunite sodomy and sorcery
time to redefine ourselves
.
we need to find our sanctuaries, our groves and our tribes
so that the healing of our planet home can begin
and the healing of the human soul, in which our sexuality plays a crucial role.
shokti 
I don’t find the Internet useful for securing quality sex: Too much subterfuge, feint, misdirection and planned catchment. The Internet as tool of sexual procurement in my experience, focuses on the visual sense. All the Internet and phone hookup applications primarily focus on the visual sense. The visual is important in sexuality, but only so far and in reality to a limited degree. Sex in the human experience is principally and fundamentally a kinaesthetic, tactile, skin or touch-related act of some sort. Other senses augment the visual sense and all senses may be sexually fetishized and erotic. I loved the hunt, wind on my face, surrounded by nature and the sounds and smells of my environment and the heightened awareness that results. I loved the seduction, the sacred-grove-pleasure of outdoor park and beach beats, of secluded places. I once upon a time loved dancing in nightclubs and outdoors in raves and passionately picking up and being intimately engaged in movement on their dancefloors. I have always valued drug-as-sacrament and as an intentional and experiential sacred journey of mystical consciousness. I am principally kinaesthetic and sound oriented. Movement and sound is really erotic and seductive for me. I was successful in the saunas for the same reasons. My experience of friendship and love has been in short supply but I learnt how to compete and win at disposable sexuality and I got trapped within that context. I feel like I have wasted my life.
I didn’t waste my life on further assessment. When I wasn’t partnered, I just responded to the heterosexual culture of repression and bigotry and the sexual context of propriety of the time and place within which I was inset. I would have preferred an enduring lover and lifemate but emotionally honest and loving humans capable of love, loving and intimacy as well as being sexually adept and sexually capable were and are still a rarity and in short supply. Few human relationships maintain sexual relationships that satisfy for any enduring time. Many couples appear together but they do not maintain a sexual relationship of any import for any significant time. It is part of the human condition.