I was supposed to be home, sad and dying
but I was in Soho drinking and flying.
I’d just had such cosmic visions –
met the Goddess through energy and rhythms,
felt euphoric and inspired,
full of life, somewhat wired…
I soon got told by a down to earth queen
to stop acting like a messiah.
I wanted every gay to know
I’d discovered a way for us to grow
from caterpillars greedily chewing at life
to butterflies filling the world with light;
there’s a path for us to follow
over the rainbow to our own sweet magic Self:
the Spirit was clearly showing me that
the persistent repression of our nature for a thousand years
is the cause of our issues with health.
People didn’t want to hear
that I’d found a way to transcend fear.
People didn’t want to know
that the Goddess had sent me to sow
some seeds of truth about our queer spirit,
that if we can wake up and truly shine
the sky is not even the limit.
Death seemed now to me irrelevant,
for surely I’d been on this ride throughout time
as the rocks, as the microbes, as all creatures;
suddenly I saw that Divinity
is the most hidden of humanity’s features:
Hidden by Church and State
in order to create
a world subservient to their need and greed:
they achieved this through imposing
a twisted, unholy creed.
Imitating the God of the Jewish Testament
the Christians conceived a jealous God
who wanted all other versions of himself destroyed.
Through this ”God of Love”
the most horrendous atrocities have been justified
from the 4th century til modern times.
People today scream about Islamic extremism
but they should study their own history
and start apologising.
A few years later I met Queer Pagans and Radical Faeries:
at last people in touch with the Great Mystery, and since then
while building community that reaches across the globe
I’ve been deeply researching our history.
The deep roots of homophobia go back to our roles
in the ancient religions, as the healers of souls,
as conduits of spirit, connected to the earth through sex.
Sodomy and sorcery have long been bedfellows
it was because of fear of our power
that we ended up as faggots and on gallows,
and then in stocks, prisons and psychiatric wards:
BUT WHILE OUR LOVE IS REPRESSED
HUMANITY CANNOT MOVE FORWARDS.
Throughout centuries gay men were known as Ganymedes
the beloved of Zeus and the sign of Aquarius:
as the astrological age of the water bearer begins
Gays today have an urgent need
to embrace our souls and get over the greed
trained into us by a consumer society –
we’ve lived so many lives of devotion and piety
called to holy service even when our sexuality was denied –
it’s through nature – and the body – that we meet Spirit
for our love is entirely natural
but it’s purpose in the human scheme of evolution
That’s why, to keep the world asleep,
the State and Church put so much effort
into making gay love something evil
in every human’s mind.
Dionysus, Artemis, Cybele, Pan, Priapus, Apollo:
queer love was once seen as holy
and will be again tomorrow.