World AIDS Day 2018


HIV lead me to the path of SOUL HEALING

it showed me that HEALING IVITAL.

Healing involves un-learning so much nonsense that has filled our minds and developing an understanding of ourselves as a multidimensional being. There is nothing more fundamental to human life than the search for who we are, but that’s the last thing we are generally told. Once religion dictated its answers to us and science tends to do the same. Capitalist consumer culture has provided us with the means to easily fill our lives with temporary, gratifying fascinations and ignore the question all together. Things are however changing gradually, as more people are taking steps to think for themselves, and are experiencing their spiritual nature through rituals, medicine plants, meditation, yoga, reiki etc.

Yet gay life is in another crisis, this time it is an epidemic of irresponsible chemically fuelled sexual behaviours among gay men leading to breakdowns, infections, addictions and DEATHS.  Increasing numbers of gay men are pushing themselves to the edge.. an edge not so dissimilar from AIDS – many of today’s younger gay generation already know or know of someone who died through drug use.  This time no medication is going to save the day.

The reasons for the arrival of this situation are much discussed – but there is a root cause that rarely is – the perspective that we pursue extreme experiences because WE ARE ALL ON A SEARCH FOR THE TRUE SELF, FOR TRANSCENDENT EXPERIENCE THAT GIVES US A TASTE OF THE NATURE OF OUR SOUL. Self-Knowledge is what we all seek, though chances are we have no idea that that is what is going on. Nor do we know that there are easier ways to come to self knowledge than the path of excess and self-destruction. Gay culture could turn this crisis around before it gets even more out of hand by putting the soul at the centre of things. In the last 30 years beautiful gym sculpted bodies have become so prevalent in gay life so by now it is surely time to ask how can we also look after our souls better?

Because a horny physique .. and a shining soul… is a lot sexier than a hot body with an intoxicated, self-hating, spiritually unaware man inside it.

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Many queer people like to get high, to love intensely, to explore sexual extremes. Our voyages into ecstasy are openings to our spiritual nature, with the potential to reveal to us the multidimensional, vibrational reality we are part of. Because of the attitudes of religion most of us do not choose to explore the spiritual urges we find on our sexually charged, often chemically enhanced bliss trips, but if we look beyond the limited scope of the commercially driven gay scene there is an ever increasing rainbow of avenues for us to explore and express who we are, one example being Radical Faerie community gatherings. Gay liberation is only 5 decades old, our collective culture has yet to fully evolve. We are big on passion and play but short on compassion and prayer. But we are a spiritual people, finding our way in a world that has denied us for too long, and our journey of liberation is ongoing.

That world is sick and it needs our healing gifts.

This is the calling of the twenty first century queer: to learn to unite the body and soul, the genders within ourselves, the sexual and the spiritual and find the healing role we are here to play in the human family.


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AIDS SHAMAN, by Shokti, available on Lulu and Amazon

here’s an excerpt:

For me HIV was the key

That revealed the spirit flowing through life

That opened the gates to eternity:

Facing mortality is the quickest way to see through life’s illusions

Befriending death the key to escaping confusion

About why we find our selves here

Why we find our selves queer

And just what is Self anyway?

Buddhists, Hindus, Pagans know

Mystical Christians Jews and Muslims know

That this is the real question to ask

But the modern world doesn’t want to know

It keeps us obsessed with the trivial and inane

It prefers to medicate away all pain

Gay life doesn’t want to ask the question

Of why we born this way on this rock hurtling through space

it’s simpler to take more drugs

Have more sex parties

Devour more flesh

Desire more men

For some this leads to addictions and breakdowns

Has a second plague come upon our kind

But this time the sickness in the heart and mind?

In the 80s and 90s we met death up close

We learnt to face our fears

That way some of us saw there’s more to the mystery of life

Than the modern world wants us to believe

Now we take pills to stem the virus

Now we can take one to prevent it getting a hold in the first place

And we self medicate to hold off hard feelings and fears

It’s so long since the dying days ended

What has happened to us in these years?

I survived the first plague

I turned the key

And now I wonder

When will gay life stop living in the shallow end

How many more casualties will there be?


HIV revealed to me…

We are born to be whole

We are born to be free

We are born to become all we can be

Beings of eternity

But we have to wake up!!!

We have really to face only one thing

Life isn’t about economics, grades, muscles, money and fame

It’s about playing our part in the consciousness game

We are each a part of the divine dream.


Writing this in the Autumn of 2018, I am witnessing around me, amongst my friends and in the world, a striking and rapid acceleration of transformation and awakening.  I see people breaking through the outworn paradigms of separation and division, of power and control, of religion vs science etc, and opening to co-operation, co-creation, community and direct communion with the many levels of our existence.  I observe too how this produces intense crisis for some as well as epiphanies.

The parallels with my personal journey 20 years ago are striking home in me. In the course of 1998 my journey with HIV and AIDS turned the corner. After 7 years of preparing myself to leave the body, I now began to return to health, having gone on to the new protease inhibitor medications. My CD4 count had reached a low of 3, leading to gruelling experiences such as PCP (pneumonia) and KS (Karposi’s Sarcoma). I had sat for some time on the edge of life, with an expectation of the end, but now had to turn that expectation around. 9 months into taking the new meds I suddenly found myself entering a period of rapid internal change, opening up to spirit again as I had already done in 1995, when the shamanic aspects of my soul woke up. This time though I was not preparing for death, I was re-entering life.

The acceleration kicked off at the Connections Conference at ULU (University of London Union), an event put on London’s Gay Spiritual Group, and new gay charity Kairos. A couple of hundred queers met for a day of workshops and discussions. I took along a bag of mystic tricks – poetry that I’d written, mandalas, incense and set them up in a broom cupboard that had been set aside as a shrine room, but which nobody had bothered to do much in. After a day of fascinating meetings and workshops I went on to have a high energy, world-connecting interaction with a brother in that space. Our chakras opened and the light came in, we shared our stories and I learnt that he had just come out of hospital, having been sectioned for being too way out ‘mystical’. At the conference I experienced a powerful shamanic journey led by Daniel Stone (in which I saw myself in another life amongst Native Americans), a heated debate around the role of gurus and divine mothers (where I was struck by the hostility to gurus coming from the queer witches in the room – people I would go on to meet properly the following year at my first visit to Queer Pagan Camp), and met an ‘avatar’ soul, Dr Carl Shapley, an 80 year old American wizard, with whom in the following months I would go on to do much mystical channelling and energy work.

Shifting from a path toward death back into life, with a brand new outlook on the magical, mystery school that we inhabit, produced an incredible rush of excitement in me. After the conference I dived into mystical study and practice, creating ceremonies in my home in Stockwell to commune with other worlds. At this time I received chemotherapy as an experimental treatment for the Karposi’s Sarcoma, which had spread as purple lesions all over by body, plus internally too. I believe it was my gradually strengthening immune system that sorted the purple spots eventually – the main effect of the chemo seemed to be to set the molecules of my body on fire, and my mind as well as a result. I recall spending weeks ‘flying’ on my sofa, on a magic purple/white blanket that served as my portal to the other worlds, drawing my journeys in my notebooks as I went. I was often awake all night, deeply enjoying the quieter vibrations of the city, feeling that at 3-4 am the holiest energies were active and accessible. I spent many nights studying the Kabbalah, feeling the presence of discarnate entities guiding me, helping me create rituals that opened gates of energy. Sometimes Carl Shapley would join me, we would spend the night together in Kali’s cave, channel the words of the Ascended Masters, and enter into a glittering, hyper-aware zone that I remember he called ‘Crystal Consciousness’.

By November I was taking this magic out into the city, sometimes with Carl, and a witch friend from Earlsfield named Serena, whom I had met at a Full Moon ceremony in an old pub in Victoria. We three mystics met in Piccadilly Circus one night, with the spirit wild, high and open in us. I could feel the invisible energy pouring through me and sensed portals opening around Eros. London, as the mystical ‘Jerusalem’, was singing to me. I hung out with homeless people on the streets of Soho, shared conversations about Jesus and spirit, felt they had a role in anchoring the light into the planet. ‘The meek shall inherit the earth’. I went into a Jesus Army bus parked up near St Martin in the Fields, where my presence sparked an African lady to fall into trance and start screaming over and over ‘the blood of our lord Jesus Christ’. The Jesus soldiers soon ushered me out of the place, suspecting me of witchcraft…

Ah yes, the BLOOD. Her words struck home in me. The BLOOD. HIV in the blood had killed my friends, but it had given me life. The journey to death’s door had woken up the Soul in me, and the Soul was now teaching me who and what I am, and why I was here. The BLOOD had woken the Christ Consciousness in me – by which I mean mystical awareness of the interconnecting dance of life. I could now see the interplay of all life as one infinite, holy event – it was suddenly so OBVIOUS. How could anyone believe anything else? I felt that the gates to eternity must be about to open for the whole human race. There I was, awoken by spirit, meeting avatars, making ceremony in central London, and feeling part of a long history of magical work over centuries, preparing this city to be the receptacle for the divine light and the beacon to the world.

In January 1999 Carl invited me to a meeting at the House of Lords. Surely this was it. A spiritual meeting about changing life on earth, I thought. I had a poem in my pocket, but I wasn’t there to speak. I sat through a long and verbose meeting covering many topics, but it never quite reached the mystical moment of breakthrough I had imagined. I was soon walking home along the Thames to Stockwell, my head overloaded suddenly with confusion and loud angry voices. Getting home I smoked with my partner and something in me exploded. All the tension, all the pain, all the stress of the intense AIDS journey of the last 4 years overwhelmed me. What was I doing, going to the House of Lords thinking I was about to witness something akin to the Second Coming? I felt suddenly very wounded and very small. Suddenly aware of the enormity of the task ahead – in terms of the global shift in consciousness and to bring myself to a point of health and strength where I could even meet the energies of other people, and not be damaged – I felt myself dissolving into a non-physical realm, the room disappeared, and I panicked. Had I survived AIDS now to dissolve into nothingness? I fought to come back into my body, but I arrived back in pieces, shattered by this rush of experiences over the few months since I had stopped ‘dying’.

In 2018 I have friends going through mental and emotional challenges and breakdowns, I know lovely people who are sectioned because their transformation was getting out of control. Some of those people are aware they are on a magical path and have studied it deeply, others are less aware, less committed to such a concept. Whether consciously pursuing the path or not, we all may need help sometimes. In January 1999 the shock of coming back to life hit me so hard that I fell into the deepest hole possible…

Overstimulated by everything, with a myriad of voices screaming inside, I spent three months mostly in a darkened room, only getting up in that quietest time in the middle of the night, when I could hear and feel spirit, let their presence in to do energy work on my shattered mind and body. I sought and found help from spiritual healers and psychiatrists. One German psychiatrist seemed to grasp the transformation I had been through, advising me to do yoga and spend time with trees.  Having opened up this magical part of my soul, i now had to learn how to look after it, nurture it and protect it. The true healing of this breakdown came the following year, summer 2000, at my second visit to Queer Pagan Camp – here, in the company of 100 queer magical folk, the spirits of nature got through to me and showed that it is through nature, through living in tune and awareness of her cycles, seasons and shifts that I would be able to live, heal and thrive as a shamanic soul.

In 2018, twenty years on from that intensely mystical autumn, I still live in Stockwell and still make ceremonies in the city that connect matter and spirit. I still spend my time making connections with other queers – from all over the world – who are in some way called to raise their awareness, their vibration, their spirit. I still believe that humanity is ready for a quantum leap in understanding of our nature, but I now accept that these kind of leaps take decades to complete. So in service to spirit I create spaces in which awakening queers can find each other, practice and expand our magic, re-write the story of what queerness is, and play our role in the fulfilment of the divine plan for human consciousness.

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As the people of the world remember the fallen

in Scorpio season when the veils are thin

the centenary of the end of the War to end all Wars


November rains to wash away the pain

Scorpio rebirth, time to rise again

Sagittarius Jupiter and soon the Sun

time to set heights high



In remembrance we remember we are held by a greater love

we are the children of the earth

and also part of a cosmic dance

reflected patterns in the skies

in this dance it’s best to remember

there will always be lows and highs

in this dance it’s time to remember

the soul that you are never dies


We can ignore the cosmos

and stay fast asleep

but when we open our gates

we take the leap

from 3rd dimension through 4th to 5th

multi-dimensional human

god seeds evolving

we are all fragments of the divine mind

here to seek, here to find


Death’s door is revolving

we’ve been through it

a million times

liberation – pursue it

it’s pursuing you

the doorway to heaven is open

but you have to choose to walk through

as the amazing uniqueness that is you


The light comes in, the centaur’s flame

the dead are with us, they know the game

and if we have the courage to look within

we can remember

why we are here

we can evolve

beyond separation and fear






“The soul has neither beginning nor end. [They] come into this world strengthened by the victories or weakened by the defeats of their previous lives”– Origen,183-253 A.D.

The two major Abrahamic religions, Christianity and Islam, deny the reality of reincarnation, but looking back at history we see this denial has more political than spiritual roots. Reincarnation was taken off the Christian agenda at a church council, called by the Roman Emperor Justinian in opposition to the wishes of the Pope (whom the emperor held prisoner at the time), in Constantinople in 553 AD, It did not serve the interests of the political state to have the populace believing in the transmigration of the soul (and in the 21st century it still doesn’t). Internet sources tie in the behind-the-scenes maneuverings Justinians’s wife Theodora, who had her sights on the goal of deification no less, in securing this denial of the teachings of Origen. We are still living with the destructive consequences of this twist in humanity’s tale.

The council was called to deal with a group known as the Origenists, who believed that after a series of incarnations a soul could achieve divine status, equal to Christ. Orthodox Christians could not accept this – at the council the belief in the pre-existence of the soul was condemned, and reincarnation disappeared from Christian teachings. Debate over reincarnation – metempsychosis was the Greek term used – had raged from the time of Origen, one of early Christianity’s greatest teachers, until this politically motivated move. Since then the Church has taught that a new soul is created with each birth, and it put great effort into dispensing with every heretical Christian group that saw things differently during subsequent centuries. The Cathars, Bogomils, Albigenses, Waldenses and other ‘Free Spirit’ groups which the Church wiped out, embraced reincarnation, and indeed these persecuted groups also saw all forms of sexuality as acceptable and believed the soul could reach divine status while in the body.

Islamic teachings encourage a linear view of life too, and it seems likely that was also inspired by the needs of the political rulers more than the spiritual seekers. Some of the early Islamic Caliphs wiped out the followers of reincarnation-believing faiths, such as Manichaeism in Mesopotamia and Persia (Iran/Iraq), but belief in it remained amongst the mystical Sufis, some Shia sects and in cultures in Asia which retained some of their pre-Islamic shamanistic cultural beliefs.

Note that the oldest of the Abrahamic religions has always accepted reincarnation as part of the great mystery. It forms part of the central understanding in Kabbalah, and orthodox Judaism also acknowledges it, without emphasising it. It really is about time that Christians and Muslims knew that they have been manipulated and controlled by this denial of the soul for a very long time, and that the motivation behind it was political.

And please note that all the other religions of the world include reincarnation as a given. When challenged on this by scientist Carl Sagan, the Dalai Lama replied, “If science can disprove reincarnation, Tibetan Buddhism would abandon reincarnation… but it’s going to be mighty hard to disprove reincarnation.”

Make the population afraid of death and you have a subservient people, easily controlled. The Roman Empire oversaw the turning point in human evolution that led us into fearful, obedient servants to our self-appointed masters. We then became soldiers, workers – and most recently, consumers, doing what our leaders wish, ie maintaining their wealth and power. Science removes spirit all together from the picture, and instead of judgement after death sending us to heaven or hell, we are told a dark nothingness awaits us, an obliteration of our very essence of being. We are still being controlled, discouraged from seeking our own answers and manipulated into serving the economic system.

Yet surveys show over and over that a third or more of people of the western world do accept reincarnation as a fact, and consistently this is the case whether people have a religious belief or not. The soul in us knows that we come here to grow – and maybe eventually reach the point of realisation of our own divinity. The Kingdom of Heaven is within, said Jesus, and at this time of mass obsession with the external world, those that turn within will surely find what they seek.


“I died as a mineral and became a plant,

I died as a plant and rose to animal,

I died as an animal and I was Man.

Why should i fear?  When was I less by dying?” – Rumi


“And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.”   Revelation 21:4 King James Version

The Gates of SAMHAIN


SAMHAIN: the pagan new year festival of death and rebirth, when the dead are honoured and our place in the cosmic whole remembered.  Across the world so many people feel the call to mark Samhain, whether in formal ceremony or the informal celebrations of Halloween.  More ancient than any religion, this festival has deep roots in our souls, and gives us the chance to connect to them.

The veils are thin, we remember the dead, we make fun of the darkness, we celebrate the shadows and the spooks, we just know this is the witches’ time of year.

The veils are thin and we may pass through them, recall once more the ancient ways

the dance of creation, the rhythm of seasons, the power of moons, the light of the soul

and how the Goddess, through the Wheel of the Year, shows us how to be whole.

In London queer witches will gather on Samhain night at the Oscar Wilde Temple in Clapham to remember our kin, honour our kind, celebrate our power and invoke the hour of our magical return as healers, teachers and soul warriors of the human race, reuniting the worlds, lifting the veils

rediscovering the Way, reinventing it for today

inviting a renewed understanding and experience of the relationship between the living and the dead


invoking health and balance mentally – emotionally – physically by honouring all parts of ourselves:  Samhain brings a time of endings as we release the summer and old beliefs that no longer serve our wellbeing, and a chance to prepare for the more inward journey of winter

to achieve this we remember the elementals and the spirit world….

Now comes the time of year when the cosmos is inviting us to enter into a deeper relationship with dimensions beyond the physical, to let our belief in our isolated individuality die and take a journey of communion and connection to the higher self and the collective consciousness. If we step through this portal, the Gate of Samhain, we will be ready for the rising fire of the centaur spirit Sagittarius and the journey through Capricorn, Aquarius and Pisces months, taking us through to the Spring and giving meaning and depth to our experience of Winter.


The first Bliss came in the late 1960s, the hippy revolution, the summer of love, the festivals

The second Bliss came in the late 1980s, house music, acid, the second summer of love

The third was in the mid 1990s, rave culture and pre-millennial ascension

The fourth in the early 2000s, the new age seemed not so far away

The fifth Bliss has been building since 2012 and is with us now

Some are riding the wave, some are falling into the deep waters

Bliss is what’s hitting us, though we may consider it crisis

Vibrational shift on personal and collective levels

body, mind, emotion, spirit: humanity waking up to Oneness

The sixth wave is coming in from 2020

and the seventh in the 2030s

It maybe takes 4 generations to shift the human spirit to a new way of being

70 years of struggle and strain, the battle between bliss and pain

between transcendence and destruction


With each wave of bliss the spirit world merges with the physical

rebuilding the SACRED HOOP

the love consciousness field that unifies matter and spirit

a field held in place by human shamanic souls

from whom the power was taken long ago

and instead stored in cathedrals and churches


When the shamans held the sacred hoop in place

the people lived in the dance and presence of spirit at all times

there was little need for holy days or holy places

this was the Dreamtime, the Happy Hunting Ground, Arcadia


Our own shamanic past wiped out centuries ago, in the west contacts with spirit still happen through mediums and mystics

but their offerings are ridiculed and diminished by society

which has been sold a consumerist dream of never ending greed

and kept in a deep, deep sleep


When a wave of bliss hits

some wake up from the dream but then maybe

will fall into confusion and pain:

to escape from the mass delusion

we have to face many challenges on the way

and the best advice I ever got

was that when the going gets tough

the tough PRAY


With mind set on the goal, and ego the servant to the Whole

With heart open and compassion our greatest tool

We discover the Earth is one big Mystery School


On this journey we need allies, comrades, friends

For there may be a way to go yet

Until the dark age of division and confusion ends.


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Restore the Holy Whole


all the worlds lived together

there was no separation between matter and spirit

humans talked daily to the dead

and remembered to honour the faerie elementals

who kept nature in balance


gradually humanity lost the connection

became obsessed with the material plane

but remembered the spirit as the Great Mother

holding, loving, feeding us all

until the men of war rose to dominate the world

and set a Father God on her throne

dictating laws and condemning sinners

but still the people could recall

that the spirit was real and that they had lived before

in other forms and would do so again


it was the Roman Emperor, not the Church

who eradicated reincarnation from the Christian worldview

male priests seized the spiritual power that had long belonged to the women, transgender and queer peoples,

male priests claimed to hold the keys to heaven

instead of ecstatic rites that brought in the divine presence

people went to church to hear the preacher

tell them God could only be known after death

and only if they obeyed the Church’s rules in life.

All this to create a frightened population

forced to be soldiers, workers, slaves and, nowadays also consumers

doing the bidding of their masters

kept docile by capitalism, media, alcohol and drugs

until we no longer even believe

in the transcendent possibilities of our souls….

Until we have no faith in our ability to be whole

to be One with all creation

to rise daily to a natural elation

dancing with the spirit of Life

remembering the source of existence is Love.


But in this darkest hour

as Ignorance dominates the planet

millions of hearts are opening and souls remembering

this is not how it has to be


everything we think we know will change

we can live multi-dimensionally

enter the dance of synchronicity

unravel the knots and blocks in our souls

make the remembrance of ONENESS our greatest goal

restore again the holy Whole

each one of us has a role.


Ivy Moon 2018

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The world is full of lies

Humanity seems stuck in darkness

Humanity is destroying the planet

Everything we know must change

Change starts on the inside

Awaken to the miracle

Get over the fear of loss

Awaken to eternity

Divinity lives in you and me.


The mystical month of the Ivy Moon began on the 9th October 2018 at the Libran New Moon.

In Pagan lore Ivy is said to teach us that restrictions are necessary for us to fully hone our skills, that opposition is a blessing in disguise, that our opponents are actually our teachers. Ivy reminds us to accept and celebrate our life as it is, while taking the long term view and preparing ourselves for times to come. Winter approaches, this is time to boost our health and resilience, to get prepared.

Ivy binds things together as it wanders freely linking trees, but can also form dense thickets that block out the light. Thus Ivy reminds us that death is always present alongside life as we enter the Samhain period where the veils between the worlds are at their thinnest, and the ancestors close.

Ivy is associated with the horned gods Pan and Dionysus and is seen as plant of protection, sexuality, property, healing and faith. The Ivy Moon month is associated also with the lark, the mute swan and the swallow. Goddesses of this time are Artemis, Arianrhod, Ariadne. Ivy’s meanderings represent the soul on its search for light and awareness.

Starting in the Libran Sun Month, the Ivy Moon brings a slower time after the frenetic and challenging energies of the Summer.  A time when, if we slow down enough, we can tune into the subtle realms of elementals and ancestors, whose presence is close as we approach Samhain.  Hinduism celebrates the Divine Feminine at this time of year, with the 9 day Navaratri celebration of Durga. The goddess is seen in Hindu faith as the divine present in creation, known as shakti: alive, moving, fierce and connecting all things.

In 2018 the Ivy Moon comes as Venus, planet of the Goddess of Love, has just begun a 6 week retrograde in the mystical sign of Scorpio, which energy is about to play a huge part in the conclusion to this annum.  All year we have been experiencing the energy of expansive Jupiter in Scorpio – this underlying tension has been exposing shadow elements in society (eg MeToo movement, church scandals etc).  Now as Venus retrogrades in Scorpio and the Sun heads into that sign, the personal and the global are both affected and we might expect some big shifts.

A manifestation of this is the sudden surge of attention in the media to the devastating impact that climate change is going to have on us all, calls for a global effort to change the way we live on this planet.   Even the dismantling of capitalism is being spoken of.  But the issue is that until the mindset of people change, all efforts could be in vain.  What is needed of course is what many of us mystics have been calling for since years – a complete shift in understanding of life and consciousness: the birth of a global culture of Self-Realisation.

During the Autumn, Water is the underlying elemental force, teaching us to flow, to feel, to share, to care.  It is through emotions that we experience our oneness with all life, and compassion is the key to open the human heart.  2018 has been for many an intense year of growth and change – through emotional connections, through compassion for ourselves and each other, we find the strength, resources and confidence to handle the challenges and opportunities still to come.

Samhain is approaching – the Pagan new year when themes of death and rebirth are strong. This is a powerful time to celebrate the Great Mystery of our existence, to open our souls to spirit, love and guidance from the non-physical realms… to open ourselves on the inside to the many layers of light and dark within, journey to our spirit guides and god/goddesses for insight and healing….. and permit any parts of ourselves that are no longer serving our joy and evolution to die. Samhain is the time to celebrate those who have passed out of our world, to open to them in love and feel their continued presence in our lives. This can bring us reassurance, resilience, reflection and respite. Life is eternal, and although we are experiencing it from the perspective of our individual body-minds, we are not those bodies, we are not those beliefs, thoughts, desires and fears. We are life itself. Facing death and overcoming our fear of death is how we get to experience this truth for ourselves, to take it deep inside and become it.


We human beings are multi-faceted creatures

We have Physical form

We have Instincts and Desires

We have Will, Ego and Personality

And powerful Emotions, blissful to raw and extreme

through emotional trials we gain emotional strength

The Cosmos has given us the gift of Self-Awareness and Self-Expression

We have Spirit, Intuition, Creativity

that can unlock the Divine Core of our Nature

We have the potential to love unconditionally

forgive irresistibly

and hasten the day when the species wakes up

to its Unity and Interdependence with All Creation.

The Soul incarnates to have experiences that enable growth in all these levels of its being



Autumn Equinox 2018

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The Sun moves into Libra, sign of Balance, the cardinal air sign ruled by the Goddess Venus, its cardinality launching us into Autumn, the season of harvesting what we have sown in the year, shedding our leaves and remembering our connection to the Ancestors and other worlds.

The festival of the Autumn Equinox is known as the Mabon, a Welsh name referring to the Divine Child. At this point of the yearly cycle the cosmos invites us to stand in our individual power, find the balance between our human animal and divine aspects. This year the Equinox falls under the spirit of a powerful Pisces moon, revealing,through feelings, our the deeply interconnected nature of all living things, connected through love, through presence, through shakti. The Aries Full Moon follows a day after the Equinox, calling us to affirm and stand in our individual strength, light and power, and go boldly into this new season, into new magical times.

The flowing, glowing, loving, compassionate presence of Spirit has been known in many cultures as the divine feminine presence of the creator force of the universe. We can commune with Her anywhere but we often do it most powerfully when we do it in union with others. That might be union of heart, mind, body, achieved through love, stillness, touch, dance, music – uniting the physical and the spirit is what the divine feminine in us does.

So many names have come down through history to us, names that invoke her love and presence.


are names known on a global scale, along with many more


are names that were once well known in the British Celtic lands


was one of the three great religions of ancient Rome, but her roots go back millennia in Turkey, she was honoured in ancient Greece as Rhea, the Mother of Zeus, King of the Gods, and her religion was brought to Rome with much more ceremony around 200 BC. Her worship lasted until around 400 AD and was ruthlessly suppressed by Roman emperors seeking to use the rigorous Christian faith to impose order on society.



The shift to patriarchal religious domination was gradual, and is associated with the rise of property ownership, developing militaristic dictatorships, and shift in kinship system from matrilineal to patrilineal descent. Goddess worship was frequently hedonistic, sexual and ecstatic. It was often led by gendervariant and same-sex loving people, serving in the temples of Ishtar throughout the Middle East, as the wandering Galli priests who brought ecstatic ceremonies to the people of the ancient Meditteranean, and indeed as witches, druids and shamans of the old nature religions across the planet.

The suppression of the Goddess cults went hand in hand with the repression of same sex love. Sodomy and sorcery were intimately connected in the minds of the people. The patriarchal religions waged a war on both, creating a global situation today where the presence of spirit as the goddess, known through magical practice, is forgotten by most people, where people are brainwashed to fear or ridicule pagan faiths, and the spirituality of the genderbending queer servants of the goddess is utterly denied.

But in the early 21st century the Goddess is returning, and her queer children are visible on a global level and claiming their rights as never before. Most of those lgbtq+ probably have little or no idea of this ancient association between us and the magical realms of the spirit.

After a thousand years of suppressing sexual freedom and pagan lore in Europe, as Christian men went out to explore the world they were horrified to find sodomy a common occurrence on every continent, generally considered normal and often associated with shamanic power and witchcraft. They found powerful lesbians too – such as in the Azanda tribe in Africa. The South American rainforest is named the Amazon in reference to the mighty female-led tribes found there. In China and Japan homosexuality was viewed as a privilege enjoyed by the buddhist monastic classes – indeed monasteries and convents had often served as safe zones of same sex love in Middle Ages Europe.

The missing element in the story of global LGBTQ+ liberation is our connection to the spirit, to Goddess worship and pagan practice. This can only be PROPERLY understood of course by those who EXPERIENCE the truth of it.

Across the world there are Queer Pagans, Radical Faeries, Queer Spirits finding each other and remembering our magical powers. The people of the Great Mother are returning.



“The Mother of our ancestors birthed the universe from her body. There was no separation between Creator and creation. And as we shift our thinking and come back to this ancient wisdom, we will find balance and healing for ourselves. Ultimately the Creator is neither male nor female, but Oneness. It is the Prime Vibration. It is Absolute Information. In Seeing It as Mother we honour own own capacity for connection, compassion, clarity and communion of the soul. In knowing It as Mother we cycle back to the beginning of this era so that we can step into the next in wholeness.

The liturgies of the Father are spoken, as revelation comes the from the Father in words, for with words he created the universe. The universe itself is the revelation of the Mother, and her liturgies are of the body. As we open to seeing her and her creation, as we learn to feel our place in it and know that we are never separate from it, and cannot ever be separate from it, then everything we becomes a prayer. Anchored in love, our bodies filled with joy, reaching out in ecstasy to express our gratitude, we ground the Mother’s bliss in the world.

In our Mother’s world we do not have to struggle for enlightenment, Her light is always with us. We do not have to be reborn, for each moment of our lives is a new creation in her infinite, eternal body, and we are always a part of it.”

Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing